Today I had a really good sweat.
So I woke up and it's humid and I'm sulking in a bad mood. I mean, I didn't get out of bed until 11:46 bad mood.
Considering I was awake at 7, that's awhile to sulk.
Fed the cats, did some chores, and finally I said fuck it, it's too hot to be on the damn computer, so just fuck it, put my phone to the side, just let my youtube favorites go and started in on yoga.
I admit, it was partly motivated by a video that made me remember all those goals I had set and want.
So I just went to. I breathed. I sweat. I pushed.
And all this with massive knots in my shoulders and neck from dancing and hiking, so I was generally not in the best way to be doing this.
But I went into it. And I just kept going at it. I can still do a crow pose, though not with fully extended arms. I was pouring sweat off of it.
And when I was finished, I just lay there. I closed my computer, I put my phone to the side and I just lay there, staring at the ceiling.
And anytime my mind started to wander I just sat there, and made sure I focused on the ceiling being there.
I think I'll be okay. Come what may, on my own, with other people, I think I'll ride the waves out.
So maybe I'm lonely now. Maybe things feel shitty now. But I'm on my way, and I have the ability to change my environment, and if I'm sitting around on the internet feeling miserable, maybe I have better things to do with my time then be miserable and hot.
So I woke up and it's humid and I'm sulking in a bad mood. I mean, I didn't get out of bed until 11:46 bad mood.
Considering I was awake at 7, that's awhile to sulk.
Fed the cats, did some chores, and finally I said fuck it, it's too hot to be on the damn computer, so just fuck it, put my phone to the side, just let my youtube favorites go and started in on yoga.
I admit, it was partly motivated by a video that made me remember all those goals I had set and want.
So I just went to. I breathed. I sweat. I pushed.
And all this with massive knots in my shoulders and neck from dancing and hiking, so I was generally not in the best way to be doing this.
But I went into it. And I just kept going at it. I can still do a crow pose, though not with fully extended arms. I was pouring sweat off of it.
And when I was finished, I just lay there. I closed my computer, I put my phone to the side and I just lay there, staring at the ceiling.
And anytime my mind started to wander I just sat there, and made sure I focused on the ceiling being there.
I think I'll be okay. Come what may, on my own, with other people, I think I'll ride the waves out.
So maybe I'm lonely now. Maybe things feel shitty now. But I'm on my way, and I have the ability to change my environment, and if I'm sitting around on the internet feeling miserable, maybe I have better things to do with my time then be miserable and hot.
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